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Ogbanje III

By Noel Ihebuzor

Thick as a moonless night,

sticky and debilitatingly damp

was your grip on our minds,

clammy on our thoughts

misty fogged, drugged by mystical myths,

our sights clouded, we saw the horned dog,

eyes red chilli, schools of skull carrying

fish flying and whirling around,  transporting

red toothed ageless mermaids sucking young blood

and souls, never questioning

the cry of the night owl calling to mate

made mothers freeze, cowering in fear,

covering the feverish body of

sick children lest the hollow hooting of the owl

their mournful summons siphon their spirits out.

Mothers and fathers shivering,

sweating ignorance thick

on their haunted minds

like tattered wet blankets

  

New day, new dawn,

the frontiers of your kingdom

roll back by half every quarter

the native doctor’s beads and amulets

now gather damp and dust,

outside, short shallow red earth-covered mounds

sad resting places for souls spirited away

slowly vanishing with the roll of time

 

new wisdom, knowledge and vision replace

specious séances garbed in obscurity

progress breathes, heaves rolls forward in waves, freeing,

washing away ignorance,

shrinking superstition,

knowledge unrobes untruths and lies,

its piercing rays illuminate the dark kingdoms

where once you roamed and raged

 ragging souls and joy with your minions.

As new knowledge uncovers why children die

that for which we blame the gods recedes

memories of starless bleak nights and deadening days

when the dreams of mothers and fathers

were drained by truncated childhood

are now distant

wailings of  childhood ended too early

by frequent returns to spirit-land recede,

the suckling mother is now gay

suckled by the sound of happy progressing infancy,

bonding and binding to a child who stays

 

Victory, we rejoice and regale,

cakes and candles

celebrate another passing year

spiced with prayers

for many more to come

 

But let us beware,

one victory signals another battle

new Ogbanjes could be spawned in the emerging

sterile and suffocating space

where politicians with sterile policies

men and women caged by greed

minds manacled and shackled by corruption

the grabbing hand, ending up throttling life

sucking it and snuffing it out

in resources siphoned and stolen

our red eyes survey the empty and emptying clinics

the dying and decaying social provisions

the death of vision, and we weep     

beware also of  kindred new spirits that end childhood

lurking in sprouting new religions that reinvent

the power of witches and wizards

selling smoke, suspicion, and superstition

to unsuspecting slumbering followers,

shallow bewitched, emasculated by fear, minds entrapped

 

The bank accounts of preachers, politicians, and public servants swell 

as ranks of new ogbanjes now begin to emerge,

crowded into ever-increasing shallow graves,

and the soul-draining groans of parents in pain.

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A song for Santos

I would have played the sweetest of tunes then for you

but boils erupted all over the lips of my flute

and malicious termites mangled its delicate throat

 

Santos, the song I had hoped to play for you

must await another season when these sobs that clog and choke my  throat

these blocks that freeze my heart and voice

slowly clear up

 

in the season of waiting, dry and lean,

O very Santos,

Dimkpa asa,

only this pool of red tears is the voice of my song of sorrow.

 

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The long mile by Noel Ihebuzor – CMR

(on the pains of child mortality)

She walks with slow dignity
Feet as lead, soul as stone
auto-pilot, behind him on this long last mile
a dark strangling walk, unfitting end to a journey
that had commenced with songs and stars
a mother’s heart frozen cold, numb
as sorrow scorches and freezes her
all at once her to the core
of her being

No tears flow now
“He would not want me to cry in the public
Even though this mile I walk behind and with him
should be his to walk for me”

she dreads the end
the sight of another mother opening to receive and enfold him
the sound as shovelled in loose earth
draws the blinds forever

the tumbling sands drown her prayers
for the father’s bosom
to welcome this pilgrim
who returned too early

and as she prayed
the welled up tears, push down the barriers
of soul destroying composure
and cascade, the heaving sobs and wails from
a shattered mother
shattering the solemn calm of a painful goodbye

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Fading voice

 

You now dance like a drunken flame

in a broken earthenware pot

now sooty, nourished by a short weak wick

soaked in sleepy sludgy dreg palm oil

 

You zig and zag in vain

singing like an ogene with a cracked throat,

with a parched throat

like an ogene in pain

rusty and drunk

its voice dying…croaky and groggy, its timbre gone

 

Your voice now rough grates my ear drums ……

I hear your voice, fading and faint as if from a distance,

Cracked, crackle-less

fleeting and fading

as the distances between us increase,

even as you stand before me…..as I wonder what has really changed…

whether it is your song, or my ears, or the two of us.


 

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Dreams, desires and departures

by Noel Ihebuzor 

I dream in bright colours

of gold, silver, and all the colours of the rainbow

I dream of the fresh scent of the dry earth

in the kiss of the first rains

I dream in colours of children’s  voices

of beautiful music painted in a kaleidoscope of colours

I dream of you

I desire souls that sing with the agility of nimble athletes

of serenades, where lion and goat,

goat and yam commune in bliss

I desired you

I dreamt my desires

and I desired my dreams

Dream and desires met

and as I savoured this meeting

in undreamt melodies

They parted; departed

 

Their meeting was so brief

but their memories are eternity

Is this parting for ever?

Will they never come together again ?

Why ?

perhaps my sins,

perhaps my desires were wrong,

perhaps my dreams were done with eyes open

perhaps it was not your will

 

Beauty does not reside with sinners

pearls do not fit swines, nor furs the wretched …….

perhaps what I now suffer is thus meet –

an expiation for sins committed in the past

but unknown even to me.

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Short lived gifts

by Noel Ihebuzor
Confess it and it is yours
and like Thomas, he doubted.
but time, loneliness and hunger conspired
and so with breath heavy and hesitant
He did and it was,
and he remembered your promise
anything you ask in my name, I shall give

He held on to your gift
with strong and firm fists
his heart was a rainbow,
his person a song as the days
flew bye, and the stars sang and every rustling leaf
sang to the chorus of his singing soul, “this Ndawi is a forever gift, no one can snatch it from him”

Then the gift slipped through his grasp
Silver through his clenched fists
And his heart leaked red tears
His soul drained, parched
his groan from deep down tore the
Soft curtain of the silence of the night

Should he shout his despair
on the crest of the ZUBA?
Should he mirror the broken spirit
of the savage whose sadness permanently
encrusted on ZUBA Hill incites
the sorrowful and the gay to pity?

And he seeks to soothe his pains with lavish
Portions of potions and balms of forgetting but
remembering becomes more acute the more he gulps and rubs of these

Should he now shout himself hoarse
in rages of hurt and despair?

and in between heaves and deep sobs
he longs for an anaesthesia for this tortured mind
a potion to change this jelly soul to stone
that can feel nothing, and therefore not hurt again
Every night now, he wrestles to release his frame
and his soul from the grips of his overpowering sorrow
mornings in well -rehearsed smiles he repeats
in a hollow and breaking voice
“Thy will be done”
And he breaks as he struggles to manage his pain